Depression :'(

On the first page of our story the future seemeed so bright, then this thing turned out so evil.
I don't know why I'm still suprised. Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take that to new extremes but you'll always be my hero even though you lost your mind.
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn but that's all right because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry but that's all right because I love the way you lie.

my bad day

7 am in the morning i woke up because of a shock dream, in my dream i saw my farther trying to kill me...then i just fall asleep back, I sleep like dying, my group member was calling me many time but i didn't hear the phone ring...actually i have a group meeting at 8 am today but i sleep over then i woke up at 11am...i open my phone ...oh my god 9 miscall n it 11 am...shit i rush to school to meet all of them...when i step my foot in to the library all my group members was staring at me ...i feel so guilty so ashamed. That just one part...12:30 i have to attend building science class which is the most boring class every one was fall asleep in that class. Everyday the class suppose to finish at 2:30 pm but today we just learn a few slides then finish half our early then teacher ask 'anyone have any question' then everyone said 'no'...he seem not really happy with that then i ask 'teacher the class is finish can i go early because i need to do assignment for other subject also i'm so hungry because i didn't have breakfast yet'. then teacher said 'you have another time to do it not this time and this is my class if i don't want you to go so you can't' I don't know why he wants to keep us in class without doing anything like that ...he ask 'is this class boring you?...ok next class i put 50 slides for all you guys so you guys will not boring and don't want to go out before time up anymore. then again everyone was staring at me they think that because of me. 6 pm i finished all my class then i go to take the car behind the school drive back home, there was many car back their then a bad luck come again i hit someone car back there then i came out and check my car oh my god it got a big scrach on it i was thinking oh my gosh i wase money again because i have to fix it and i can't let my mom know it but it a bit lucky because no one saw it then i just rush out from there if not i have to pay for the car i hit one more. I got back home first thing i do is i said 'MOTHER F***ER' the door was lock and i don't have a key, it with my brother and he is on the way to KAMPOT, I started to call to my cousin she said she come home at 9 pm because she works...then what i can do just waiting for her in car...i feel so bored because i have to sit in the car for 3 hours what the hell is that day? then i just call to my babe to talk with him....then the first call Trr....Trr...Trrr...the number you calling is busy....second call...Trrr....Trrr...Trrrr...no answer....3rd call, 4Th call, 5Th call...still ...Trrr....Trrr...no answer...then i call again....a girl said the number you are calling is out of coverage area...please try again later.....What's a day?

Making a wrong choice

I love you before i meet you. That the word he used to tell her...the song he used to sing for her. He stay up late until 4 am everyday because he wants to chat with her...many sweet words that he used to say to her...the way he used to show that he really want to take care of her...the word I love you that he use to tell her everyday....those kind of things make up one love....then everything start to be real not thought text anymore...they saw each other...they met each other...they spent a sweet wonderful memories together...he said I love you more and more when i met you...he stick up with her in every single moment...holding her hand everywhere he goes...shown her off to everyone...told everyone how proud he is to have her...everyone was know about that...he went to meet her family...told her parent he want to take care of her for his whole life... growing old with her...he said he going to engage her and married her as soon as possible, because he doesn't want to lose her...he made her falling in love with him so bad...
Two weeks later it time for him to said good bye to her to be apart from her to his mother land but just a short moment...he holding her in his arm crying together to say good bye at the air port...he promise he comes back soon and bring the wedding ring for her.....
yeah...and he come back as he used to promise....but everything was change ....he totally change to another person...i can't believe that is him...he came on her birthday...she was waiting for him to said happy birthday to her...but noooo...until she ask him what is today...and you know what he said he don't know he forget...she trying to keep a smile on her face with the tear inside her heart...everything that he use to do ...he used to say to her was disappear all. he doesn't even want to talk with her... to touch her like he used to...
A night come the birthday party was start...he did nothing he just come to join ...all her friend were doing many thing to surprise her but that what he should do...a party was keep going suddenly he disappear...everyone was trying to find him almost a hour than when we saw him he was talking on the phone with someone....she was crying like the hell. she said why he did that ,why he doesn't care about her...then she stop crying and the party keep going...until 3 am in the morning we desire to go home...she a Little bit drunk then she fall from the stair...then you know what the guy that go to carry her is her friend not him...he just standing and watch.
everyday he always talking on the phone with someone ...then she ask who is that he said friend...actually he was on the phone with another girl, he cheat on her....but she's not give up she still try to turn him back...I'm so pity her...she crying everyday ..I hold her and told her stop crying , be strong ...then she ask me back what she has done wrong why she meet this kind of thing...she said she done many good thing why what she get back is like this...she said she really hurt she really hurt...suddenly my tear just drop out ...i really love her, i don't want to see her like that...but i don't know what to do to make it better..............................
this is just one part it still to be continue because she doesn't let him know that she know he was cheat on her yet........

sothyta birthday 2010

we all in white dress

I look so brown

She lost already..lol

It suppose to be only sitta and me


I look more brown when I post near her

No matter wat happen

MAY......

May the luck always with you whereever you go and whatever you do
may you always have work for your hand to do
may your pockets always a coin or two
may the hand of your friend always be near you
may i could hepl you whenever you need me
may your day many and your trouble be few
may happiness fill your heart each day your whole life through
may something good is going to happen to you
may there be kindness in your gaze when you look within
may you be set free from the prison of quilt, fear, disappointment and depair
may good luck be your friend and trouble be a stanger to you
may people always right next to you when you sad, growth your laugh and dry your tear
may you feel me always by your side
may your heart be strong

And may all of this words truly happen and come to Roniel Dionco

HElp.....

help..... I need it now..... I know its not right but I hope I can get some.... coz its been too long I been helping people maybe its now time for me to ask for some helping hand.... I dont know how to say it..nor even know how to make it... but I hope you can just understand.... Its been a long trip.... but its not easy to quit and put the white flag....

but I can say now..... IM PUTTING THE WHITE FLAG UP.....