Who am I?

who am I?

I love, I fail, I tried again, I fail gain, I was close to giving up…..until you came.

I’m not sure why people always take advantage on my age; they used and lived me after getting what they want.

I was never sure if I can be angry on them, if I’ll get even with them, but one thing I’m sure I never want to be bad AGAIN.

But don’t push me so hard!.... I might push you back and kill you, and I’m sure it will not be nice.

I been to dark side, and it was not that bad…… it’s a chaos, and I don’t want to see that person on me again.

Who am I? They often tell me I stepped from my cell’s confinement Calmly, cheerfully, firmly, Like a squire from his country-house. Who am I? They often tell me I used to speak to my warders Freely and friendly and clearly, As though it were mine to command. Who am I? They also tell me I bore the days of misfortune Equally, smilingly, proudly, Like one accustomed to win. Am I then really all that which other men tell of? Or am I only what I myself know of myself? Restless and longing and sick, like a bird in a cage, Struggling for breath, as though hands were compressing my throat, Yearning for colors, for flowers, for the voices of birds, Thirsting for words of kindness, for neighborliness, Tossing in expectation of great events, Powerlessly trembling for friends at an infinite distance, Weary and empty at praying, at thinking, at making, Faint, and ready to say farewell to it all? Who am I? This or the other? Am I one person today and tomorrow another? Am I both at once? A hypocrite before others, And before myself a contemptibly woebegone weakling? Or is something within me still like a beaten army, Fleeing in disorder from victory already achieved? Who am I? They mock me, these lonely questions of mine. Whoever I am, Thou knows, 0 God, I am Thine!

Many times I've asked this question of myself and this riddle gave me a new view to this. If half of what you do is defined by your habits, then your habits will give you the answer to half ofthe question. 50% of who you are, of who you were, of whom you will be are simply determined by examining your habits.But that is only half the answer. To me, the other half is determined by the choices we make. Even as far as our habits are concerned, we can choose what we want to do about it. If you choose to do nothing, or change nothing, your habits will continue to dictate your destiny. Is that what you want? This poem, or rather riddle, is not the answer. It is just a riddle - a riddle that might help you figure out who you are. Are you the sum of your habits? Remember that you are in control. You can CHOOSE to change your habits. For better or worse. The choice is yours.

I am your constant companion. I am your greatest helper or heaviest burden. I will push you onward or drag you down to failure. I am completely at your command. Half the things I do you might as well turn over to me and I will be able to do them quickly and correctly. I am easily managed - you must merely be firm with me. Show me exactly how you want something done and after a few lessons I will do it automatically. I am the servant of all great individuals and, alas, of all failures as well. Those who are great, I have made great. Those who are failures, I have made failures. I am not a machine, though I work with all the precision of a machine plus the intelligence of a human. You may run me for profit or run me for ruin - it makes no difference to me. Take me, train me, be firm with me, and I will place the world at your feet. Be easy with me and I will destroy you. Who am I?