Always be for ever

I Love You.
I love every little thing about you --
Your sexy smile, the sound of your voice, the magic in your eyes. I love your gentle touch and the warmth I feel at your side ... I love dreaming about you. *I love discovering you and letting go with you. I love each and every once-in-a-lifetime moment I share with you. Today, tomorrow, forever.

I love so much about you that it is hard to pick just a couple of things out. I love the way you laugh. I love the way you smile. I even love it when you make me mad and don't know why. I love how when you upset me, you try so hard to make it better. I am so in love with you that I don't go one minute without thinking of you and wishing that I was with you! I can't stand to be without you for one second. You have truly turned me into myself. Before you, nobody allowed me to be me. You have allowed me to open up my heart and trust again. You have allowed me to smile and be happy again. And for that I love you. I thank you and I will forever cherish our memories and I know there are many more to come.

The most important thing I want to say is "I will come back, meet you, and stay with you, love you, and grow old with you"
"I MISS YOU"

Woke up in Phil!!!!

Last week I was in Cambodia, not knowing I was about to go back in the Philippines,
partying and working, It was really so sad when my mom finally told me that I will go back here,
I was so shock and a bit happy,,... and the rest is sad.
I don't want to believe it. I was thinking she was just joking, but by the way the look in her eyes, she was not joking.

But I it was really a blessing, and I know that's the best for me, I was about to continue college,
and I was really happy that I was about to go to school. Finally!!!.... but I was afraid what will happen when I come back!

And June came!!.... it was to hard to accept that time fly's very fast. It was really hard. I was going to live those things I grow up with. And the people I knew that they were always there.

And my time is suddenly gone! morning came and it was time for me to live the party.
It was really sad I was about to step out of Cambodia.
I was missing those people already, My mom, dad, my brothers, my sister..... and the rest of the family, and my friends, and my love

Then June 8 came. I was in the Philippines already.
I can't believe that I was walking in the street of it.
So many things change, people grow old, places was change, and time goes by so fast.
And it was so weird that every one around me is talking so different.
The way they talk is so different!!!...
And suddenly I knew!... I surrounded by the language which I understand.

But I will always wants to come back in Cambodia

The people I call F Family.....

Franco (Creative Director) A.K.A my cousin.... he is more than a boss to me... his like a mentor to me, I always want to make him proud... and I hope I do..... and I will always miss him......

Sophy ( Editorial in Chief)..... She is a strong like a bull..... thats why I really admire her. And she also a good friend. She understand things easily... I'm gonna miss u... and thank u for the letter

Noh ( Managing Director)...... My Boss in the F magazine..... He is the one I was working for the first time, I learn a lot from him. and I been to different places, and spend time with him working and partying....... I'm gonna miss u Boss, thank you for your words

Jayson (art director) My first ever teacher in Photoshop...... and other editing mater. I really gonna miss this big guy. He looks so mean, but he got a soft heart. he is always there if I needed some help..... I'm gonna miss ridding on his motor...... and going home together..... and the joke and funny times.... I will never forget wat u teach me.....

Mac (Marketing Sales)...... He is my first friend in the office, Coz I was working wit him the first time, and I was so happy that he trusted me,...... and wen I move to F magazine he help me with the things that I'm gonna do, and he never mist an advise to me..... and I was so thankful that he become one of my big brother!!!!! I'm gonna miss him..... wen we go out side the office and he smoke ( I don't smoke, only him).... and we talk, and joke around..... I'm gonna miss it

Snguon (Editorial Assistant)....... She sit beside me in the office, and every time I'm with her, we always laugh, I always have a good time with her...... talking, working, and partying!!!!!..... She is one of the people I always joke around with, and I'm gonna miss her, coz she always ask me some spelling!!!!! We will still party again girl!!

Soap....... he is really quiet in the office, but I really like the most to him is wen he like to say something he would say it, with a smiling face, And I'm gonna miss that smile!!!

Narry (accountant).... she is the smallest in our family, but she is really smart wen it comes to counting (thats why she's the accountant). But I will miss every morning she say "HI" and "good morning " to me. And she also respect me, even she's older than me!!!!

I'm gonna miss u!!!

Sothea (Marketing Assistant) ...... He is the oldest in the family, but he is so down to earth. I really like talking to him, even we don't have the same age, we still understand each other. I like him, coz he let me borrow his motor everytime I need it, and if I need some help, he is willing to help me. I know we will meet again

I dont have a picture of yeng (distributor), but he is like sothea. he is kind and understanding.... but sometimes lazy!!!!!!!

Time goes by so fast.

It was destined for me to be here, to live and understand more about life.

I was really sad when I heard that I will be living Philippines, and living here.

It was too hard in the beginning and it was not that easy for me to adjust my

life for this new thing in my life. I miss a lot of thing back in Philippines, the people

I use to know, the food I use to eat, the place I hang out. All of this and more

I was really sad. But what can I do I’m still a kid that time,

But I didn’t many good things will happen for me here,

I met new people, new friends, new love, and new life,

They are friendly, kind and loving. And understand me the same way my friends in

The Philippine understand me. People live but most of the people stay, and I call them

True friends. The first year was adjustment time for me, but the other 4 years was a hell of fun

I was so proud that I came here.

I was 12 when I went here. And now I’m turning 18 , time goes by so fast.

Meeting Cambodian people is really hell of fun. I learn to understand there language

And there living. I know Cambodia is hot, but that doesn’t make is boring. It was

The place I call second home. Even sometimes people are crazy, and they tried to trick you

Its still a place I want to come back and come back, a place I grow up.

The best person I met was my best friend Leonora Cruz,

She was my friend and we all know that she was my best friend ever. Even though we fought

We always best friend, I love her so much. I could never think of forgetting her. She make my future

And she’s on it. I will always and forever your sister. I’m gonna miss u sis..

And the best things keep on going to my life, but I can’t deny that I have some bad times.

But God keep giving me problems, to test me, and to make me a better person.

I was stop and go through my studies, because of some family problems. I really want to study,

But maybe it was not the right time, in a young age of 16 I work here in a fast food restaurant.

And when time flies so fast, I realized that I need to finish High School. So I return again in studying

And I finish High School

And I was overwhelmed when I got a chance to work in a Modeling agency, and dance group.

My first project was to teach the SPY MODELS with dancing and modeling, and they’re twice my size and age

But they are like gentle giants. They look at me like a real teacher, and the really trust me.

But every time someone was eliminated, I was so sad, I feel like my kid is gone. But its just like that. It’s a contest.

And after it was over I cried like a baby, coz I know it was the last time I could ever see them.

But it the best par t is when I got into F group (F magazine), it was like so amazing. Every day was a new experience for me

And they trust me so much. And I couldn’t thank them enough for that. Every issue is like new challenge for me.

And I will never forget F…. I love F magazine.

And I love the people behind it.

I love Cambodia,

Who am I?

who am I?

I love, I fail, I tried again, I fail gain, I was close to giving up…..until you came.

I’m not sure why people always take advantage on my age; they used and lived me after getting what they want.

I was never sure if I can be angry on them, if I’ll get even with them, but one thing I’m sure I never want to be bad AGAIN.

But don’t push me so hard!.... I might push you back and kill you, and I’m sure it will not be nice.

I been to dark side, and it was not that bad…… it’s a chaos, and I don’t want to see that person on me again.

Who am I? They often tell me I stepped from my cell’s confinement Calmly, cheerfully, firmly, Like a squire from his country-house. Who am I? They often tell me I used to speak to my warders Freely and friendly and clearly, As though it were mine to command. Who am I? They also tell me I bore the days of misfortune Equally, smilingly, proudly, Like one accustomed to win. Am I then really all that which other men tell of? Or am I only what I myself know of myself? Restless and longing and sick, like a bird in a cage, Struggling for breath, as though hands were compressing my throat, Yearning for colors, for flowers, for the voices of birds, Thirsting for words of kindness, for neighborliness, Tossing in expectation of great events, Powerlessly trembling for friends at an infinite distance, Weary and empty at praying, at thinking, at making, Faint, and ready to say farewell to it all? Who am I? This or the other? Am I one person today and tomorrow another? Am I both at once? A hypocrite before others, And before myself a contemptibly woebegone weakling? Or is something within me still like a beaten army, Fleeing in disorder from victory already achieved? Who am I? They mock me, these lonely questions of mine. Whoever I am, Thou knows, 0 God, I am Thine!

Many times I've asked this question of myself and this riddle gave me a new view to this. If half of what you do is defined by your habits, then your habits will give you the answer to half ofthe question. 50% of who you are, of who you were, of whom you will be are simply determined by examining your habits.But that is only half the answer. To me, the other half is determined by the choices we make. Even as far as our habits are concerned, we can choose what we want to do about it. If you choose to do nothing, or change nothing, your habits will continue to dictate your destiny. Is that what you want? This poem, or rather riddle, is not the answer. It is just a riddle - a riddle that might help you figure out who you are. Are you the sum of your habits? Remember that you are in control. You can CHOOSE to change your habits. For better or worse. The choice is yours.

I am your constant companion. I am your greatest helper or heaviest burden. I will push you onward or drag you down to failure. I am completely at your command. Half the things I do you might as well turn over to me and I will be able to do them quickly and correctly. I am easily managed - you must merely be firm with me. Show me exactly how you want something done and after a few lessons I will do it automatically. I am the servant of all great individuals and, alas, of all failures as well. Those who are great, I have made great. Those who are failures, I have made failures. I am not a machine, though I work with all the precision of a machine plus the intelligence of a human. You may run me for profit or run me for ruin - it makes no difference to me. Take me, train me, be firm with me, and I will place the world at your feet. Be easy with me and I will destroy you. Who am I?

Me NOW

I was nearly crushed by them

Me at avatar look

Me and Mac...... making fun with Sreynet

This look so weird

it was a Hair party... but I din't get the note

The light was really good... but suddenly God said to me..... " Its not your time yet"

The Two Assistant of F magazine.....

With Srous

With Noh Sar (my Boss)

The Birthday boy SOPHEA

At Studio 182. I was really having a time out, I need to have a picture of myself.

It look so wrong from this.

Taking a big bit.

The Summer Issue

This is me.....talking a picture of my self with the models at the back

At the hotel near port side..... it was 4:00am in the morning.

with Thea and Yeng

First I my hair was really nice, but after the water falls it was all mess up.

but look at the view...... it was secretly in a secret passage behind the trees.

With the people behind the trip.

The falls at my back was really cold..... but really pure clean water.

At the Mountain top.

With Noh Sar, at the stop over going to Kho Kong.....

Chilling out, while waiting for the rest to pack there things.

Taking some rest at the port side of the fishing place at King Island

I don't know what this is

Me at the AWESOME